still first, damnit

what's the matter with kids today -nofx

i'm not saying what happened exactly, but i ended up buying two sets of tickets for last night's game... or rather, make up for the first set blunder. idiot.
anyway, the game was: shit. the girl sitting next to me: shit. she was lucky it was too cold for me to do anything about her ignorant ass.
dodgers got creamed but whatever, it was good times being with jen, nic, and zanderiffic.
and at least we're still first in the west. talk shit to me when you surpass us.

and i hear the sharks didn't get past the ducks in the first round? crazy.

Today feels different... in a good way

It's taking me 100 tries, but I know I'm getting there each day nonetheless. For some reason, today i was more at peace (relative of course) than the past few days. Like a light bulb turned on in my head and my smile came back. interesting.
As slow as the light's coming, it's still coming.

I've just.. Yeah just realized what I need to do to make this work. I just hope I'll get more chance cards.

i'd rather have this than not at all

world, be patient with me. it will be worth the trip.

memoirs from the bus

i could say so much right now...

it's a saturday

oahu country club? anyway, venue for chandra's Crescendo event. 70's nostalgia.

i'll give you a few bucks if you tell me which one was won at the silent auction and which is scott's piece.... hmm...

auggie. he's goofy.

asia hypin' the girls

today, hung out with marissa and asia. asia's first soccer game of the season, in los altos. i don't care much about playing soccer, but there's something about sunny days, freshly groomed grass, and kids running around playing sports. i swear, you couldve given me a soccer ball, cleats, and some shin guards and i would've thought i was pele today. kudos for their effort, but that opposing team was just a little more skilled and conditioned. all good, good times. the season's just underway.
marissa was falling asleep on the drive back so she asked me to drive for the tail end. though i suck at driving stick i love any opportunity to do it.
plus, i wanted to live... along with the 4 young soccer players in the back seat.
lakers chewed up the jazz tonight and i think im ready for a nap. drawing to be had later. maybe ill have inspiration then.
B, you make my day.

well...

actually, i do know why. live and learn... and live some more.
though the situation is different, my convictions and feelings remain the same. if this is the best we can do, then i'll make the best of it. i'm a positive thinker right... then life as well will be.

thursday

i'm not done.
and I'm working on the smiling technique.
oh time. looking forward...
see it how you want

I can't be done

why...

it just doesn't feel right.

i don't know except one thing...

In and around Easter

Easter cupcakes courtesy of Morena's daughter. morena is carlos's sister.
dude, he has 10 siblings or 9.
Soft and silky... yes they were. i had two.

pre Easter Bbq. morena's backyard. and yes, it's because she runs a daycare.

oh and prior to this on Easter, i finally went to church in about several months. it was nice. it was relevant. then, volunteered again with the little brothers something something ...of the elderly. i had the privilege of visiting ricardo leons. God bless him. ill be visiting him again soon. then, as im walking home from divisadero marissa calls me and invites me to carlos's family Easter gathering. that was very nice of her to invite me. i appreciate these times and acts of kindness very much.

dawn danby from Autodesk. she's their director of sustainability, or whatever her title is. supposedly she holds several degrees in this stuff. this is my second time hearing her speak. she's pretty good.

one love -nas

im going to hawaii in about a day, i have 10 renderings to do for dp 1 for the mission site, physics, jane and vanessa are here, i need to go to the gym, reinvigorate the joyful experience with B, and a bunch of small things. key words to keep in mind as i proceed: efficiency and cool. i can do all of this.

cabo to tahoe

nuth'n - loer velocity

im finally relieved of my DWR project... sort of. now, en route to a mission site project with the school of architecture.
Cabo was B-less, but it was fun nonetheless. i might've learned though to stay away from overpriced all inclusive resorts. it's the epitome of gluttony. one week later, head to kirkwood with the kristens and B. She has a new board and can carve. whaat. her souvenir from me, getting sick. :/

it was an odd encounter, but he was cool.

welcome to my backyard.

the D, teacher, and tricia salsa concoction.

looks fancy, but it's not legit. room service chocolate cake. should be called leche cake with chocolate glaze.

straight up in mexico.

epic.

rancho cordova. aka nothing.

kaipo on the new shortyfats bike at ridesfo.

B whizzing by on her low rider. gangster.

ok, we won't. it's the paint booth for crying out loud.
herrooo!

what.