Get back on track

"Use your heart"
–SWV

...That means a lot of things. A simpler term for this is Balance. For instance, this blog of mine has been neglected. I'm sorry blog, I'm here again to fill your data space.

keyword: uncertainty

So,
I've been tagged as over-analytical by many friends. Am I really, inherently? Or, is it because certain instances/people bring that type of characteristic out of me? Possibly both. relationships, been in many, got out of many. Now if i look at the root of why such happens it looks like miscommunication or rather, communication styles differ therefore leading to ....

Wait, you know what, maybe I am. :p I'm writing, writing, wri... and it's happening.
So what do i do–I get better. I have been. Do it again. Learn more. Thank you past 11 years. I don't want to screw things up if I can help it.

All i ask is one thing, though, and that's give me what i deserve. God knows I give it my all. (maybe too much too soon? eh, better than half assing it and being semihonest with myself. the last time i was semihonest/scared to own up to what i really wanted i ended up with a damn tattoo on my chest lol) And in the end if what i get is not what i expected, it's all good. I always graduate to something unexpectedly amazing.
smiley face.


What else,
it's my summer. the pottery barn internship fell through. Call it what you want–misleading communication, deliberate, blessing in disguise... it's all good. again, graduate to something amazing. I'm working more with DZR and I have time to work on my portfolio and build a personal life. looking forward to success. MFA, bitches.

And so,
I take back this wednesday afternoon. I'm back on track.

Birthday cakes, bruno mars, healthy bantering, ticklemonster, harry potter, sincere apologies, star gazing... at the ceiling, big spoon little spoon, "come here", late but not detrimental, clenching call-outs, hyperhidrosis is okay, eating fest, Harper's Bazaar inspiration, forgetting but forgiven,...

man, relax. let it be.................................. 

see, it's nice isn't it